MAGNETIC REVERIE Read online

  “Don’t worry babe. Everything is fine. We have been already here in the past.”

  “Okay, if you say so. I trust you!” I saw Claire’s face light up. I knew she wanted me to feel safe with her and trust her. I got to feel not only love but also trust, and I believed that besides honesty, all these things went together. We walked on a narrow pebble road, deeper and deeper into the pine forest. There were trees on both sides. The further we went from the beach, the more silent it became. What was most important for us was that there were no people around. A majority of them during summer time were more attracted to the sea than to the woods. This was just perfect. Even the smell of animal excreta didn’t spoil the moment for us. It was just me and Claire walking on the pebbled road, looking forward to what seemed like a metaphorical path of our walk together through life. In that moment, my desire that the two of us had to remain together forever was strong. Claire turned to me and started kissing me, strongly and passionately. It made my knees melt. It seemed like there were just the two of us and the trees were encircling us, protecting our passionate kiss from the eyes of strangers. It felt really romantic. For a moment, I was lost in the kiss, and it seemed just like in the movies. It was the magic of kissing beyond the four walls. The ambiance was beautiful and nothing could spoil it. The moment I opened my eyes, I saw something crossing the pebble road. I closed my eyes and opened them again. This time it was even more obvious. There were animals passing from one side of the forest to the other! I was scared. Claire sensed it and started to smile.

  “I told you to trust me. Don’t worry babe!” She could barely control her smile.

  As I watched more and more, animals were moving closely and this made me even more scared. It wasn’t that I didn’t trust Claire. But the fear of the unknown was greater. At one point, a little deer passed very close to me, looking like Bambi. But the poor baby was more scared than I was. Soon, it started to feel cool to be in the middle of nature where animals walked freely. For sure, it was something one doesn’t experience on a daily basis.

  After a few moments, Claire took my hand and led me deeper into the forest. I listened to her. My knees were still soft from the kiss before. She started kissing me again. I felt my back being pushed towards a pine tree. My lips were glad to feel the touch of her wet lips again. My desire for her increased over and over and I didn’t realize that her hand was already under my sarong, pushing the top of my bathing suit aside. My breasts jumped out, yearning for her touch. I felt another part of my body craving for her even more. I didn’t have to wait for long as she moved the other hand down there. She knew exactly what I needed. I came fast, and if her lips wouldn’t cover my lips, I would have screamed. I didn’t care about the animals or that somebody could hear us. All I cared for was her and my need for her, for her kisses and touches. The feeling was amazing and strong enough to get over my need to have everything under control. I saw satisfaction on her face when I came. My beautiful love! How could she make me go head over heels for her? Nobody managed to make me feel like that!

  She helped me put back my top and hugged me softly, while I was still a bit lost because of what had just happened. So we didn’t even need a room after all! She made me dependent on her. I didn’t care if this was a good thing or not. I just enjoyed everything to the fullest. I was grateful that she showed me the Bambi family and the feeling was even nicer knowing that this was just a pretext to take me into the forest. Despite the fact that I was scared, the satisfaction was great. Well, it was even better when I found out that they weren’t deer but actually moufflons, a subspecies of wild sheep. It was the first time I had seen them. Claire explained that they weren’t typically from the region. It was the initiative from a local hunting organization to bring moufflons to the place. The surroundings suited them, so there were 200 of them, now. I felt happy, like a child. After some more time soaking in nature, we returned to the beach. We didn’t risk a kiss anymore. The memory of what happened in the forest was strong enough.

  On our way back to the city we admired the sea under a really amazing sunset. We looked at it from a distance. The orange sun was slowly going down, as if sinking below the water under the Šibenik Bridge. Even the most professional photographer couldn’t have caught the view as well as to make it look as amazing as it did in reality. The world is so beautiful when you love and are loved back.

  When back in Šibenik, we decided to have coffee before dinner. We were on a holiday and it didn’t matter when we slept, anyway. We read that Krešimir IV Café & Wine Bar was highly recommended. We went up to the first-floor terrace, which was built into the ancillary buildings of the Franciscan Monastery, looking towards Riva, the local name for the seaside promenade. The coffee was good. The waiter was pleasant and polite. The view was nice. As the sun was down, one could rest their eyes on the view of the port. From a distance, the sound of the church bell gave me a sense of serenity. Looking into Claire’s eyes, the feeling was all the more deeper. I felt happy and I would frame that moment and keep it forever in my heart. We didn’t talk much. We were silent as we enjoyed our drink and the view, especially looking at each other. Our bodies had to abstain from kissing and touching but our eye-contact didn’t have to withhold itself. Our magic moment was interrupted by a man. “Excuse me!” A handsome guy addressed me. “I heard you talk. You are from Slovenia, right?” I nodded. “Let me guess. Koper, isn’t it? I was there once and it was so nice, really beautiful place.”

  “Yes we are from Slovenia and Koper is a really nice city, but we are from Ljubljana!” I answered, amused. “You must be here on a holiday. How long are you going to stay here?” he asked. “Few more days, but we will go around, as there are so many things to visit!” I answered.

  “Yes, Šibenik is very nice and everything around. Did you know that Šibenik is the oldest Croatian city on Adriatic? There are not many people that know it!” He sat on the chair next to us without being invited. I was interested in what he had to say and his interruption didn’t bother me, but I noticed that Claire wasn’t.

  “If you want, it will be my pleasure to show you around, as your local personal guide, without any charge of course! Will you give me your number so I can call you tomorrow?” While he said this, he smiled nicely. I thanked him but I had to refuse and he left us. But in that moment I realized that I had no idea what my number was. I noticed a phone in my purse but I never used it. Most probably the battery was dead anyway. Also Claire was rarely talking on the phone so maybe that is why I didn’t think of it earlier. But anyhow, there were no rules in my dreams so maybe the phone didn’t play any role. Still, I was thinking what would happen if I would call Greg? And it actually stroked me that I never tried to do that and maybe if I would just call him and tell him I am all right, he won’t worry for my absence. There are few days now since I have the feeling that I am continuously in the dream, often I even forget about the reality, but still, I am sure Greg must be dead worried about me. So I took the phone out of the bag, but the battery was empty. I have to remember to charge it when we reach the apartment.

  After the local guy left, it was again just the two of us at the table. I didn’t have any idea how long I was lost in my thoughts, but when I looked at Claire, I could see that her face was relaxed and she smiled nicely to me.

  “Do you really think that he just wanted to show you the city’s surroundings? He just saw the opportunity of a young beautiful girl new in town.”

  “But I would like to see his face if he would know that we are together,” she said, smiling. Somehow, her voice was louder. I felt bit embarrassed first as it seemed that despite the music the people next to us heard our conversation, though I had no idea if they could understand. But the next moment I joined her laugh. Yes, why do I care?

  The next time I looked into her eyes I felt that I want her in exactly the same moment. So I just suggested to pay and leave the place. We were supposed to go to dinner afterwards, but while going down the stairs from the coffee place
I kissed her passionately and I was assured by her response that dinner was the last thing on her mind as well. We started walking fast along the little streets made of stones in the Old Town. It was getting already dark and the streets were full with people so at moments we were losing each other. At times we were even holding hands. There were a lot of people around us. We almost ran to our apartment, our little nest of love.

  When we reached the apartment, Claire unlocked the door and we went inside. She took me immediately in her arms and kissed me, constantly whispering how much she wanted me. Her kisses were like heaven to me. And she didn’t even need to say she wanted me, I could feel it through all her touches, through the way she breathed. “I want you now and forever,” she said and she hugged me really tight, so I could feel all her love through that tight squeeze.

  “I want you, too. My heart and body belong to you.”

  “Oh, you drive me crazy.”

  We continued kissing, I was hungry for her kisses, her sweet sexy lips. It didn’t take long so my hands were exploring her body, we removed the clothes very fast and my fingers could feel and enjoy the touch of every inch of her soft skin. The contact of our naked bodies was such a nice feeling, hard to describe with words. Our skin was soft and this made the touch very sensual. In the dim light her bright eyes seemed more fabulous. They were beautiful on the day light, but now they were purely magnificent. I couldn’t stop looking into her eyes. “I love you so much!” I kissed her eyes, her cheeks, her sweet lips. Her lips left mine and went lower, kissing every part of my neck, behind the ear, took bit longer time on my breasts and slowly I felt her kisses down, on the most intimate place. I opened my eyes and looked at her and seeing her between my legs was really an exciting picture and it was definitely something that it seemed she enjoyed. She stopped for a while and looked at me, probably not knowing if I approve of this, but I didn’t believe that it was actually me saying what followed: “Please don’t stop.”

  “Don’t worry babe. I won’t stop unless you tell me to!” She continued kissing on the inside of my thighs. “I will not stop you, because I am really enjoying this sugar.” My words must have took her a bit by surprise and gave her courage to continue. Her hands were touching my breasts, her lips were kissing me, first soft then stronger and the feeling was amazing. I squeezed her head between my legs, as the arousal was rapidly growing in me. It was an act of pure pleasure, no matter how bashful I was, I just gave myself to her, every way she wanted, as it was a true sexual delight. It didn’t take long for me to reach climax and this time was different.

  She came up next to me and kissed me on my lips this time. On her face I could see the excitement that she gave me that pleasure. “I like the taste of your body, your natural body smell just drives me crazy,” she said totally excited. I kissed her lips aware that on her lips was the taste of me and I didn’t find this repellent, but surprisingly I found it very sexy and really intimate feeling. I could feel she was aroused. We were kissing and touching when I took the courage to move my hand lower from her breasts and I tried to remember what her fingers did to me the night before and in the pine forest. When I reached that place, it was a nice feeling as it seemed very familiar, soft and wet. My fingers were moving slowly and her body was giving me confirmation that I should continue that way. This encouraged me so I continued, she started gasping and moving her hips in the rhythm of my touch, first slowly and then faster and faster. “Don’t stop,” she whispered, so I didn’t until I heard her reaching the peak. Incredible feeling to give someone such a nice pleasure. It felt as good as when I reached it. This wasn’t just sex, it was more like two souls entwined and exchanging energies, and all that energy flowing and resonating deep within each other to the point of extreme pleasure and ecstasy. It was the release of all sensuality that was expressed during our love making. I felt it on a higher level, like cosmic ties and soul mate energy.

  Oh my. I didn’t think that I could do something like this, but I did it. I did it for Claire and I was happy. I felt so content and actually impressed with myself. She pulled me next to her and kissed me strong. “Oh babe, I love you so much. You are mine, mine only and I am yours. We will always be together.” I didn’t say anything, I just let myself in our warm tight hug. I felt that she owned me completely and I never had that kind of feeling before, not even with Greg. I couldn’t think of anything else in that moment either. I felt I couldn’t imagine my life differently anymore.

  The following days of our holidays were full of excitement and great moments. Each day we chose a different place to drive to or spend few hours at different beach. Most of the time there were wild beaches, but they were offering us bit of intimacy that we tried to take advantage of without being noticed. But as the location where we were had so many wonderful places to see close by we took time for them as well.

  One day we went to visit Krka National Park which with his amazing waterfalls impressed me more than Niagara Falls. Most probably Claire’s presence made me perceive it like this. Everything looked better, tasted better, sounded better with Claire next to me. I was definitely head over heels in love with her, my sweet girl. The natural beauty of the waterfalls was stunning and we both enjoyed it so much and as we couldn’t see everything we agreed to come back again next year. Yes, I agreed with her, but the uncertainty of the future came over me for a moment and I drove it away with just a look in Claire’s eyes.

  When we returned from Skradinski Buk, the place we entered Krka National Park, we realized we had only two days left of our holiday. We didn’t get to visit the city properly. It was a pity that we had to give up swimming. We put on cozy walking shoes and moved around the city all day long, stopping only for meals and refreshments. We couldn’t stop admiring the city. Šibenik has a rich history and the old part of the city told us stories from the past through the many ancient buildings. We walked through many of the little stone-covered streets that were walked upon for almost 950 years. What would these streets say if they had a voice? Claire knew a lot but we decided to purchase also a tourist book to gain more knowledge. We listened carefully to everything that was told to us. We were impressed even more to find out that we were in the city where the first wave of electricity flowed through wires approximately 120 years ago. The credits for the innovation went to Nikola Tesla, the famous inventor born in Croatia but of Serbian origin, who later received American citizenship as he lived and worked there for the last 60 years of his life. He had numerous inventions to his credit, including the radio. I read all this in the booklet.

  When we got bit tired of walking and absorbing so much information about local culture and history, we stopped by the Riva/Promenade on the terrace of one of the many coffee places and spent a few hours watching people go by. Locals are watching how people are dressed so we did the same. Who could blame us?

  In the evening, we chose another place with traditional food. We were pleasantly surprised to hear Klapa music performed live. It’s not like it was our type of music as it was folk singing, but we got to know more about the place and felt the real vibe. Finally, I got to know the kind of music Claire liked. There wasn’t anything normal about us.

  When it got closer to bedtime, the city became silent with the occasional sound of church bells ringing. Normally it would bother me, but with Claire, I seemed to be discovering a new part of me. Surely some things were still the same but I had developed deeper emotions, higher tolerance, better understanding and the capacity of living in the moment. I really liked this new me!

  We left the best almost for the last. It was the best building in the city, the one which no tourist ever missed visiting. The St James Cathedral was the most important architectural monument in Šibenik. During the Croatian war of independence in the early 1990s, the cathedral was bombed. It caused severe damage to the dome and has been under construction since. We read in our booklets that this impressive structure was built on the site of an old Romanic church next to the sea, taking 105 years to build, m
ade of stone blocks and no bonding compounds. As a result, the cathedral looks the same on the outside and inside. We admired it longer. The architecture was amazing and the carvings were lovely to see. After visiting this site, we had time left. We went up the Old Town to visit the garden on the grounds of the St. Lawrence monastery. There was a coffee shop in the garden. We felt that it would be a great spot before our next rest stop with a view of the entire town. Claire was quiet. I didn’t know what the reason was, but I didn’t want to ask. I liked her silence. She seemed fragile when she was quiet. I was amazed at all these details about her. I loved all of them. Her silence fit in with the surroundings. I spoke lesser, too, enjoying the serenity. It was late in the afternoon when we decided we had time to see also the St. Michael’s Fortress, which was just a few steps ahead of the garden. We were tired but not at all sorry. The view from the top was fantastic. It was definitely the best place to chill at, on this hot summer day. The wind was pleasant.

  We took our first picture together there. It was Claire’s idea and I realized that I hadn’t thought about it all this time. It was strange, as I was used to taking pictures of everything and everyone when I traveled. We took our picture on our own, smiling with the sunset and the Šibenik Bridge behind us. We looked lovely in the picture. The moment I took my eyes off of it, I realized that Claire didn’t have the smile on her face any longer. I started to worry and I couldn’t ignore her silence anymore.

  “What’s wrong, sweetheart?”

  “Nothing babe. Everything is fine!” she answered softly.

  “What do you mean nothing? You’ve been quiet all day. I thought you were just enjoying the places in silence. But now, I am not so sure anymore.”

  “Yes, I preferred to admire them in silence, as they have such a strong history behind. Our lives are so small compared to everything these monumental buildings could say, if only they had a voice!”